If you were to tell me this time last year that I would be in a new city, doing what I love as a career, I wouldn't have believed you...mostly because I didn't believe that my then self had it in her. I was always playing it safe with the jobs I was taking and never pushing myself to pursue my love of photography. If you know anything about me, you'd know that photography has been a part of my life for over 8 YEARS NOW (let that sink in Katelyn), and it took me 8 years to figure out that I wanted to truly go for it and not settle anymore. It took going through the highest of highs, and the lowest of lows at my old jobs to realize that my heart wasn't going to be in anything else, if it wasn't dealing with photography.
I remember crying in a bathroom to my old coworker during my paralegal job and telling her that "I have no passion for legal work, so why am I settling here?" Yes the pay was 100% a reason to stay, but I was physically and mentally hurting myself by sitting at a desk, with no windows, no outside communication, reading and editing papers, debating on becoming a licensed paralegal (ha, that was a silly thought) and thinking to myself these 3 things:
1. Is this really what I want to do?
2. Is the pay worth me being absolutely miserable all day long?
3. Could I ever see myself finding a passion for law?
All of those questions led to the automatic answer of NO! So, one day, without even a second hesitation, I walked in and ended my position there. Lesson learned, do not quit a job without having another one. Well lucky for me, I found a job very quickly at a up and coming company and thought that it was going to be perfect for me! Again, settling for a position that wasn't photography based, but it was a position where I could learn marketing and social networking, which has then helped me in my own business. At the time I didn't know it was secretly leaning towards that, but it took a couple Starbucks runs with my best friend at the company for me to realize that awful thought of "holy s**t, I'm settling again".
Luckily for me, during my time there, I met the absolute love of my life and the person who would soon become a huge reason for me pursuing my career. After many conversations, debates, on where I wanted my life to go, I had the Oprah "Ah Ha Moment" and woke up realizing that this was it. This was going to be the last "job" I ever have. So again, I walked in one day, told my boss I was moving away to pursue my passion, and never looked back.
Photography to me is not a job. It's not something I wake up to each morning, dreading to do. It's not just a hobby anymore. I've said this before and I'll continue to say it now.
It is my passion.
It's my light, my energy, my gift to others, my purpose, my destination. It's me. That might not make sense to many people and it does not have to. It makes sense to me and that's all I know. I have failed many, MANY times this past year with business mistakes. I will continue to make mistakes as I grow into it, but I know I will only grow stronger and more passionate each and everyday, and my clients have a lot to do with me growing. To all of those who have put their faith in me to capture their loved ones, I want to thank you! You absolutely, without a doubt, made my 2016 the best year of my entire life. I am so humbled by your grace, your love, your patience, as well as the time you allowed me to be in your world. I want to build relationships with my clients and build their trust with the gifts I provide them, and I hope they know that they each hold a special place in my heart, forever.
These are some of my favorite moments of 2016! I cannot wait to see what 2017 has in store for my business and I, but I have a feeling it's going to be absolutely magical!